choices

so i wrote a whole epic entry and somehow ironically lost it trying to copy it.

so here i sit again giving it another shot...

this past week was spent processing the changes that have occured in the past month and those that will inevitably occur in the proceeding months

ive been embroiled in bitter internal turbulence in my effort to calculate my next career move. as decisiveness has never been a strong character trait in me, im literally pulling my hair out in an attempt to sort out what would be the wiser move.

what would be the deciding factor - to choose between money & specialisation in a dangerous area of law vs a much safer more stable pennyless potentially career building uncertainty - which way to go? i dont yet know.

i guess eventually things will fall into place or they wont, and if they dont i think im finally strong enough to deal with it when that happens. or am i?

so much to think about because at the end of the day, the decision i make will ot only be for myself and it will not only affect myself but the people around me too

i have to take them into consideration because ive finally accepted that i will never be free to do what i really want for myself

responsibilities will always come into play and by golly there are many

whatever choice i make i will have to live with - i just hope i eventually make the right one.