how now?

i just realised that its been ages since ive written a proper post

but what do i say? where do i start? moments come and then they pass before i get the chance to even condense them into words

i told myself to write only happy things... but happy things are so momentary ... so fleeting...

how does one describe the sadness ive been feeling over the past year, the changes and the static

the lingering the fuziness and the goals unfulfilled

how does one condense all those feelings into something comprehensible...

how does one stop being angry

how does one let it go

it seems to be only then that one can write properly again