B-U-M

UGHHHHHH

i feel like such a friggin bum...
it wasnt so bad when uni was still out for the majority of the (uni student) population .. but now that uni has begun and that summer is officially OVER
its time for a reality check

So what have i been up to since the summer began?

Let us re-cap..

it started with much anticipation

we were all looking forward to a summer of fun.. fun ..sun and more fun... and it started off ok..

the first weekend after my last exam (ever! for undergrad atleast) we went to GODSPEED... a rave. While EEEEEEEEEEEEVERYONE was seemingly off their nuts, nina and i stood quietly absorbing the environment.. for awhile anyway...

it was so strange... while outside everyone seemed so grumpy but as soon as we walked in everyone just went off.. LITERALLy which left nina and i bemused... seeing that we seemed like the only people who went STRAIGHT.

Hours and dramas passed before nina and i figured out that we could dance RETRO to the music and then we were jumping loonies... but it was ok cos noone cared... and noone would remember

we had hotdogs and we watched the jumping castle ... missed the fake snow that came down everywhere on everyone while we were outside gourging ourselves with food... we complained of the sweetness of the lollipops and we were merry...

donning the singlets i made .. we couldnt be more content (despite the soreness of our legs from clambering up and down the stairs for water for everyone else)..

and that was that night.. it was fun.. it was the beginning of a summer to remember...

weeks passed and it was time for me to leave for my trip..

we were sad and i wasn't ready to go... we wanted to stay for christmas and new years and all the festivities.. but we planned this and we were going and there was no looking back..

at the airport danny was sad.. i tried to encourage some excitement because this was THE TRIP.. the one we had waited so long for and had spent so much time talking about.. it was a trip to remember and indeed it was..

hong kong was great.. macau was great... bangkok was great for shopping... we went to pattaya twice and it was fun ....phuket was movie-like... and we near-missed the tragedy and havoc caused by the Tsunami by two days...got braids for like $1 and convinced everyone else that they were reminiscent of Alicia Keys (not sure how convinced they were).. tried new things like shooting and new food...

so anyway.. we were having fun and i was just settling in... when i had to come back... i couldnt delay my flight any longer .. i got back two days before hell began... urghhhhhhhhhhhhh

i started uni and with all its confusion got through a two week intensive course (albeit) barely ... then the trip to Queensland came around and i realised i couldnt afford it so i stayed back and picked up squash instead...

bought a $40 racket cos claire told me it was "SEXY".. i said "YES THATS ME.. ILLL TAKE IT"...and now i am determined to use it!

So the trip to QLD came and went.. everyone came back cheery and then danny had to go back to work and that was that...

the beginning of the end.

danny went back to work and i... still had two online subjects which proved to be a full time job on its own, to complete

and then uni started for everyone else

summer ended

and here i sit

feeling like such a retarded B-U-M!

i should be job searching... or atleast doing my assessments.. instead i sleep at 5AM.. wake up at 1PM and just ponder... hanging on to the hope that the ODPP job would come through... maybe...

i should be doing something anyway... something productive... anything but this

for fucks sake i should get over "Summer" cos it aint Summer anymore.. its MARCH and its beginning to get chilly again ..

MARCH! 3 months of the new year has passed.... almost 5 months since i started bumming yet im still in denial...im still clinging on to the hope that the BEST SUMMER EVER will begin.. or atleast not end...

time flies

im not getting any younger
i should do something with my life... i shouldddddd

write a magazine article or something.. its been like a year since i graduated from journalism and i havent written shitall.. this is bad.. what a waste

i feel that law too is slipping away from me.. im beginning to forget... forget how to solve problems and analyse cases (sif i ever knew how to)... im becoming incompetant..

its awful..

i should atleast clean my friggin room .. or car...
tomorrow..
tomorrow..

and so i keep saying and the days go on and on ... and i keep saying tomorrow

maybe tomorrow i will write some more..

for now.. rant/re-cap/monologue OVER