stupid shitass weather

i used to think that i was unaffected by the weather

yes i hated having to be at work or uni on rainy days

but in my mind i remained unaffected

there was even a time when i enjoyed dreary weather

i used to think 'if only i could be at home, curled up in my doona, a nice cuppa coffee with a good book and a warm heater, that would be nice'

today i woke up so unhappy

unhappy with myself, unhappy with the way things have to be... unhappy with alot of things

i cried

and i couldn't drag myself out of bed, so for two hours i was lying there trying to convince myself that i could make something of the day

after all it IS sunday...

and although for once, it is raining on a day when i dont have anywhere to be ... i'd like to do something other than staying home

maybe i never really wanted to stay home curled up in my doona with a good book and i only dreamed of it because there was another place id rather not be

but anyway, my point is, i think dreary weather makes me depressed

stupid shitass weather