heat stroke

im sitting here, roxette playing softly in the back ground, trying to decide how i am feeling

im a mixture of nerves, of anticipation and yet i am also ironically calm all at the same time, and i am floating in and out of clarity, of conciousness and of my immediate surroundings

elements of the past intermingled with the present and the future

what is this that i am feeling? what is it that i am thinking? what is it that i want?

and what is it that is wanted of me?

while i eagerly look forward to what is to come, i am feeling frightened about not being able to let go of the past, to move forward

to move back

commotion

catharticism

calm

asleep