annoyed

i am sooo annoyed right now

i hate myself so much for becoming the shadow that i am and i hate him for making me hate myself for becoming the shadow that i am

i feel like ive lost my identity as a human being

im relugated to someones girlfriend with not much space to make my own decisions

so much criticism in the air

who the fuck am i? and does anyone give a flying fuck? ... about what i think .. about what i want? about whoever the fuck i am?

i'm expected to be this girlfriend.. always smiling.. always content with being second best (if you're lucky)... or even 5th best... or maybe tenth in the list of priorities.

guys who are whipped criticise other guys for respecting their girlfriends...protective mothers over sons... a community where being remotely respectful to their girlfriends is frowned upon

if you want to wear the fucking pants then take some initiative and act like a man
and if you want fairness then let the decision making be fair!
without prejudice... without judgment .. and bear a smile.. be respectful.
and for fucks sake communicate!