anger at the chicken shop

i will not let this affect me i cannot let this affect me... i refuse to let it overcome me and consume me.. i can't let this happen again... i WILL NOT let it happen again... i will not be so vulnerable... it will NOT affect me

those words i muttered before i departed

next thing u know i was at the chicken shop being trampled over by hairy old ladies pushing in and getting served before me

i just snapped

punched the glass stood on my toes to be noticed gave a few dirties and i was served

but in that moment just before i was served... i was so ready to deck them all

i think it has gotten to me...i think its affecting me...

JULIO IGLESIAS

JULIO IGLESIAS

dung told me to get a song sung by JULIO IGLESIAS and everytime i say that name i just crack up so badly

like... what the hell? JULIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

keys to your heart quiz

alright.. so i was bored... so i took another one of them bullshit quizzes... enjoy

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

road sharing

you're driving towards your destination

you're driving at the legal speed limit

when out of the blue, a middle aged lady in a rav4 speeds up and you find her tailgating you

you gently hit the breaks to slow down just to piss her off a bit

you can sense her agitation

you slow down some more for added effect

finally she's had enough and decides to change lanes

the traffic light turns red and the lane she changes into suddenly becomes filled with slowing cars

meanwhile, you, in your lane, cruise past her to the front of the line...

"yeah damn straight you friggin ho, serves u friggin right" you find yourself saying out aloud as you have a chuckle to yourself while looking back at her through your rearview...

***

how many times do u find yourself doing that in the car when you're on the road alone...

... cursing at people you dont even know and cursing out aloud?

and then that makes me wonder also.. about all the names i have been called in all my ... 10(?)years of driving... by total strangers... for just being on the road

i do wonder, how many times a day do i get called a name just for being a road user...and what are the names?

i must say compared to alot of people i am a very patient road user

rarely do i get angry unless its really shocking, i just like to piss people off gently out of spite when they demonstrate a bad attitude towards road sharing...

i dare say though, i have witnessed some very appalling behaviour on the road

why are people so angry these days!?

okay so there really is no point to this entry so i think ill end it here

cheers

uts grad bbq

 


pictures are up and can be found here

ramblings

ok so its 2.42am and i should be in snuggled up in my warm bed on this cold cold night

but im not

instead im sitting here blogging... just one entry before i go watch my tv

i had a coffee tonight so i need to make myself tired

hv came over tonight so we could work on her assignment and she showed me how to make pre-prepared lattes.. noice!

yeah pre-prepared mofo, the sort that comes in a packet pre-made and all you have to do is pour "hot but not boiling water" into (according to the packet).

yeah yeah doesnt sound hard... but it is for me!

i had a crazy hectic weekend but it was fun.

i caught up with some of my highschool girlfriends over dinner on saturday and it was really good, i didnt realise how much i missed that kind of bonding...

i went bowling on friday night (just like the old times)...

ahh just like the old times..

i played squash today which is always fun

and to top it off i went to a crazy grad party on saturday night after dinner.

when i say crazy i mean ... the sort where girls are climbing onto trees and cars and guys (one guy, john fam) peeing towards the road kinda crazy...

the kind where everyone gets so wasted they have no recollection of the kind of things they did the night before, the kind where people woke up in their beds and wondered how it came to be so that they got there...

but ofcourse i, i was sober all the while, laughing at all the crazy antics..

it was fun but it was so cold. so cold that i took refuge in the jackets of many a people.

oh and another cool thing was that in tri's chill out room, he was playing the dj tiesto dvd .... on a projector that he BUILT! he actually made it from scratch and it was really cool!

thats about it from me for now

i will be back

what to dooooooo

another day another rejection

today im not feeling very well.. mentally

im very disenchanted

very blahhh

what is it that life has to offer?

i regretted waking up

my avon trainer called me this morning and i was going to get up but i just couldnt

so i called her back and told her to talk to my mum

my eyes are dry

my mouse is stuffed

and im in a i couldn't be stuffed kinda mood

i watched oprah .. today it was about troubled teenage girls

jada pinkett smith was talking about how you have to search and find yourself everyday

peel back the layers and get to your core

she spoke of writing in up to five journals at a time and about having to constantly deal with yourself

here is a seemingly accomplished woman talking about struggling to find her core

will life always be a constant internal battle?

if only it could only get better

if only my moods wouldn't swing from highs to amazing lows in a split second, if only it could be maintained at the HIGH end of the equilibrium...

what to dooooooo

cliches

i guess the reason why i haven't been blogging is because ive been basically sitting on my ass waiting for life to happen

yes ive been out here and there ... but ive been waiting for something extraordinary to happen because i was once told "good things come to those who wait"
well its a LIE i tell you

for one, nothing extraordinary has happened since i last blogged

and two! ive been sitting here waiting for a job to fall into my lap and THAT hasnt happened either...

my mum told me, just be patient and wait... your time will come and u will be flooded with jobs to choose from

hello? im STILL here and im STILL waiting... cos afterall good things come to those who wait ...

so then i figured out another cliche which i suppose was coined to comfort those in predicaments such as mine...

"good things come to those who wait" yes...

but i think they neglected to tell me, "if you're expecting it, it won't come"
so should i not expect a job? should i not sit around and wait for life to happen?

im a bit sick atm so my mind's all floozy

thats why when dung asked me "if slow and steady wins the race, why does the early bird catch the worm" i had no idea what to say

does anyone have any insights to that one?

times are tough

so its been 4 hours since ive officially become an avon rep and no sales so far...

i had abit of trouble reminding mum of the bills we have yet to pay as she was quickly becoming my BEST customer going crazy ticking things off in the book

if theres one thing mum and i have in common... is that we LOVE a good bargain.

so yeah 4 hrs... zero customers so far... am still hopeful! i almost convinced peter t that he needed some lipgloss and jewellery before.. ALMOST... maybe next campaign i will try again

anyway, let me tell you a story...

so today i got an email regarding a position i had applied for on sunday

it was a rejection and i was feeling shitty because the job had a $48K salary attached to it.. so i was kinda bummed...

so anyway i was sitting here kinda dissappointed, looking at the job criteria trying to determine where i went wrong

when after about 5-10 minutes it jumped out at me

the job was in MELBOURNE!

*PHEWWWWWWWW*

imagine all that travelling
and goodness knows what time id have to get up to get from sydney to melbourne everyday!!!

let me tell you another story, i went to mounties to get some hair products for danny today, the damn hairdressing place moved INTO the club and upstairs and the ladies at the table wouldnt let me in

so i had to pay for membership just so i could get in to buy bluddy hair products

it was no longer $5 ... membership there is now $8.50!!!

do they not realise how many avon products id need to sell to get $8.50??!!

times are tOugh

avon rep!

i am officially an AVON rep!

so if you are interested in lovely, cheap yet beautiful GOOD products

come to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
do it nowwwwwwwwww

why?

a while back, i was having a conversation with my cousin jessie and she threw some questions at me to ponder about, here they are;

"why is it that water that has been trickled for thousands of years..have a use by date?"

"why do people turn down the volume of the radio when they're looking for a parking spot?"

"why is it everytime a person reads a street sign, they tend to turn down the volume of ur stereo/cd player?"

"why is it that when we try to read something far away...we often squint"

and the million dollar question:

"hey how cum sum guys can't do two things at once.."

any ideas?

OSHK!

i have a gripe!

i went to big dubs* today to get my bbq pictures printed out

there were 111 pictures, 11 pictures over 100.

i had never had a problem with developing more than 100 digital pics at any other big dubs* store

so i was at the machine, happily pressing all the buttons that were needed to get the pictures in the que, when there was a little hiccup.

the machine would not display an item i needed, so i was about to switch machines when this bitch who was working there...

i will name her "stupid ho"

snaps at me saying "BOTH machines are exactly the same" in this tone as though to say that i was the dumbest person on earth

that made me want to reach over and smash her face in...

so i thought "wooo zahhhhhhh" and i calmed myself down and decided to ignore it...

so that was that.

then i finish selecting the pictures and i press 'done' to confirm my order.

i was waiting for stupid ho to take her finger out of her ass so i can get my reciept when stupid ho finally looks up at me and snaps again

"TSK! CAN YOU LIKE NOT PRINT MORE THAN 100 PICTURES, YOU'RE STUFFING UP MY MACHINE"

"NOW YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO WAIT AN HOUR TO GET YOUR PICTURES"

at which point i was furious, i really really wanted to reach over and poke her eyes out and to to tell her to go fuck herself

but i thought, "this bitch has my pics, i will refrain"

so that was that.

and thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

i get my pictures

and the fucking heads are chopped off!!!

OSHK!

grad bbq pics

... are up 


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oh the pain!

i am so angry!

im furious!

i'm sitting here wailing over my swollen knee... make that severely swollen!

so i decided to go downstairs to make myself some lunch not long ago

i opened the fridge

found some salad and some lychee juice and decided to have that

so i put the salad into a bowl... generously poured italian and thousand island all over it

poured my cup of lychee juice

and i planned to go upstairs to eat it

i was happily walking up my wooden floorboard cement underlay with metal edging stairs, food and drink in tow when out of the blue i tripped...

it wasnt just any trip

it was to the kind of tripping where all the food and drink flew directly into my face, hair, nose and eyes!

so i sat there wailing for like ten full minutes but there wasn't anyone around to save me

and here i am STILL wailing

the painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

back to normality

i woke up unusually early today for some reason

everyone's been asking me why i was up so early

the answer is ... "i dont really know"

perhaps it can be attributed to the fact that i knew i had nothing to study for today

perhaps it could also be because i slept so damn early last night

and perhaps it is because of my achey breaky arms and legs from all that bike riding yesterday

yesterday ahhh yesterday

i'd have to say i had a really good time and i hope everyone else did too

a big thanks to all who came down to garrison point to celebrate my graduation with me.. i hope everyone had as good a time as i did!

pics will be posted soon-ish

now back to normaility again... poooo

tonight i have a dinner with my dad's side of the family, this could be weird.

its funny how when ive given up on striving for their acceptance, they decide to invite me out to dinner for my grad.... it leads me to think "is it merely out of obligation" because if so i'd rather they not do it...

im not used to this, it may be awkward...

anyhoo...today i plan on cleaning my room so that it would start looking more like a room i'd enjoy coming home to rather than the pig sty it is now...

i will get to it now

update later