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received a letter from the Legal Profession Admission Board today

OH MY GOSH

I AM GETTING ADMITTED NEXT FRIDAY


WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT WWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

FINALLY!

*Does a dance*

RrRrrrreowwwwwwwwwwwww!

today i woke up at 12.00pm hating my lifestyle, decided i should really find a job quiksmart...

went to a website and applied for an in-house legal position

i got an almost instantaneous response:

Becki

Many thanks for your email. I'm afraid that we won't be progressing with your application at this stage.

Kind regards

[stupid arrogant ho]

i was surprised indeed at how quick her response was, she didnt give a reason... just quite flatly and outrightly said, we will not be progressing... it was as if she didnt even bother reading my application, so i emailed her back and asked her why? for future reference and improvement, and this was her reply

Dear Becki

My client is a major investment bank with a strong preference for candidates from the top tier.

Kind regards

[stupid arrogant ho]


OUCH!


RrRrrrreowwwwwwwwwwwww!

eating dilemas

once upon a time when i was young and petrol was cheap, my friend cat and i used to drive around aimlessly

occassionally, we'd shoot each other questions amidst the silence

"so.. where do you wanna go?"

to which the reply was always "i dont know... anywhere"

"so... what do you want to do?"

"i dont know... anything"

one day... i decided to mix it up abit

you see, back then i ate for the sake of surviving, i didnt enjoy food much

so i replied

"i wish i liked food, then we wouldn't have this problem and we could just eat everytime we're bored"

big mistake

because now i have a bigger, more annoying problem

i cant stop eating and im always running out of funds and variety and people to eat with.

this morning i proudly bragged to my mum that i was going out to eat for lunch

to which she said

"with whom?"

"with my friends mum, i have friends"

she remained silent..

three hours later with a head thumping from hunger and a weakness in my body...i swallowed my pride and i made the dreaded trek back downstairs

mum said, "so are your 'friends' here yet?" *SNICKER*

to which i replied

"no not going anymore"

"why?"

i remained silent

and then she laughed

and laughed

and laughed

oshK!

becki cooks soup

i tried making sharkfin soup last night

now now before you all go "pwoahhhhhhhhhhhhh" and hail

it was sharkfin soup..... in a packet

i was going to do my mum proud by making something decent so i said to her... save some room in your stomach ill make you the best soup... and i hurried downstairs

as per stephanie's instructions i cracked two eggs and beat them up

i turned on my stove, poured some water into a pot ... then the ingredients from the packet....

at this point i wasnt too sure whether to put the eggs in or not.. i had forgotten so i thought ahh what the heck... chucked them in too

and then i proudly waited for it all to boil

and boy did it boil

after a few minutes i had guck splattered allover my mum's squeaky clean shimering white stove....

instead of the lustrous soup that appeared on the box.... i had a vomit-like subtance akin to yellow chunky congee, the pot was burnt beyong recognition and i was preparing myself for a good long telling off from ma...

where did i go wrong?

i cant figure that one out.

the chef....

 


... the link

november spring birthdays food

november being spring, being the month for re-newed life..being the month for births and birthdays...it was a weekend of food as usual

on friday night we dined at Juanitas Mexican Restaurant at Kensington for chris' birthday and i dare say it was good.

It was a cosy little restaurant (i think we occupied all the seats) with great ambience. good food, great company.... happy birthday our chrissy! (pity had no camera no pics)

then last night we had tepanyaki for kets surprise dinner at a place called oraki? onaki? okaki? something like that. the food was alright, the place was abit tight... as in stingy tight.... their salad was like... plain lettuce with thousand island sauce... pretty shocking. the waitresses were grumpy and miso soup was abit of a let down... one sip wonder.

just as well its "not about the food but about the company", it was still fun though... if you like having food flung at you. happy birthday.

the sun was shining, and the birds were chirping a merry melody

this morning i opened my window

the sun was shining, and the birds were chirping a merry melody.

i wanted to jump out.

how could such a nice weekend end so abruptly starting with the sound of rocks plummeting against my window

he called my name... "bec.. open the door" and i wanted to throw up

i let him in and ran to my mum's room despairingly

she too woke in misery

i remember thinking, one of us has got to go

i came back... opened my window and felt like jumping right out

but for the fact that i was just one storey up.. i probably would have.

the temptation was that great.

the end

* * *

tribute to my thumb

 


for those of you who haven't experienced the shoving of my thumb in your face before a meal...the story of my big fat ugly thumb goes a little soemthing like this

one sunny morning i was in the car on my way to work

traffic was its usual jammed mess and so i glanced down and saw that a peice of my nail was chipping, but instead of chipping from the top, it was chipping from the bottom

so i sat there bored shitless, sleepy, tired.....and nibbled on it for abit and inevitably the chip grew bigger

i got annoyed at myself for being a nail biter and with one fell swoop, with one swift yank .. i somehow managed to yank half my nail off and meat and puss started bulging out the bottom.

its a much better now, but like theres this gaping hole im afraid will never go away.

and that, is the story of my big fat ugly thumb.

sorry

sorry abt the outburst

got over it

damn moody these days

think im going abit crazy

sdgjslkislhkudrhrnu;oawr;jwkytb5ey!

so i went up to have lunch with my ex workmates today because its vesnas birthday, it was nice... i felt motivated and thought, today will be a good day

and all the way back in the car i made a list in my head of the things to do when i got home

clean car
finish job app
organise room
paint nails

finally got back and it started pissing down rain - cross first chore off list cant do it today

i logged online to emails from danny about his stupid car .. then he called me and kept going on and on about his car stuff

gave me the shits

and now i cant be bothered doing anything else on the list

im just going to sit here and fume about how much i HATE boys

sjdgshg;lsdrhertun6ruskhgedr;lhtrujntyu';ptyi6tiur6!

ripped off

so today i was feeling a little down in the dumps, you know... a little under the weather...

decided to cheer myself up by sacrificing lunch and treating myself to an eyelash tint

so i walked into the salon and announced that i would like my eyelashes tinted

i waited for almost two hours for a vacancy and then the lady came over and asked me

what colour would you like?

i said black

she said blue/black?

i said no... BLACK BLACK

she said you mean really dark black right?

i said yes black/black

she said ok you mean blue/black then

i was abit puzzled but i couldnt be bothered arguing after all how different could black be

so she sat me down in her little chair and put paper under my eyes and told me to close my eyes and i did

she said open your eyes

so i did

she does some funky paper fixing...

now close them again

so i did

and then she says can you not close them so hard...

can u please open them again

so i did

ok now close them

i did

she chuckles

i was confused but with my eyes closed all i could do was trust her

she did her thing flipped the paper up and i had my eyes closed for maybe a good 20 minutes

then i hollered for her

she came tottling along

is it done yet?

oh yes yes its done

she takes the paper off and cleans my eyes


okay ill go get a mirror.. open your eyes again

so i did
(anticipating mirculously lush black lashes)

she gets the mirror and i look

and they looked bluddy EXACTLY EXACTLY the way they did when i walked into the store almost 3 hours earlier!

i said excuse me, how come it looks the same

what do you mean she replied

like it looks like how it did before

and you know what she said?

OHHH because you have no eyelashes to begin with

and im here thinking why didnt you fucking tell me that 3 hours and $15 ago???

waking up late sux

oh my gawd!
just woke up
feel like crap
never again!

for the first time in like 6 months i went to bed past 4am last night

and omg how i regret it

i feel like crap

i look like crap

and ive come to realise that my motivation levels are way low merely because i have woken up too late!

but no sympathy for me... i did this to myself.. serves me right

tomorrow

tomorrow ill wake up early and ill have breakfast and lunch and i will have a normal day

mindless rambling

so i am back to square one and this time 'round its more daunting

daunting because i know we cant survive this time, we wont survive if i dont act and if i dont act fast

we're drowning and i can see no way out

i have to find a job and i gotta find one NOW

i used to be happy to be at home, i used to love being at home but since he came back ive grown to dread it so much

home now means stress

home now means more tears

home now means sadness

home now means anger

home is now a frustrating place to be

but anyway thats besides the point... its my first day out of a job and ive made it my job to find another, i havent had much luck in the past but there has got to be something out there for me thats right for me right?

so ill keep on trudging cos im a soldier so they say

so anyway they threw me a big farewell on friday with the whole office turning up for lunch and then there was the gift and the after work drinks, it made me happy that this many people wanted to spend my last day with me and it made me sad that i would never be working with such great people again.

on saturday hv and dung took me on a surprise bday outing... aint it a year for surprises? it was a wonderful and relaxing day which started with a bitch fight over a table at the fish markets GO DUNG! it was a really lovely day and it made me think.. i dont want to go home.

but eventually i did, but only to get ready for the next snippet of my bday celebrations. so i donned an electric blue dress and danny took me to dinner at the summit. now this place was quite lovely, i got a little sick because the revolving restaurant sorta revolved too fast for my motion sickness prone self, we had a $315 meal but my selections of food was nothing that blew me away... i say the fish market food was better but i guess its not the food, its the thought, the company and the place that made my night.

so saturday was a good day.. and good days can be rare so i am appreciative of that good day.. THANKYOU HV, THANKYOU DUNG, THANKYOU DANNY

Sunday sweet sunday was spent chilling at stephs lovely abode with vesna and teens and mat and neil and issy and theresa whom i had met on the day. she made a tasty lunch of beef wraps which we dipped in really good fishsauce. i found a guest room and i told her i was moving in.. she thinks im joking. hahahaha

then last nite we went to eat at barluck for ray and phils happy birthday boys... but i doubt u guys read this anyway..

just mindless rambling here

need to tire myself out for a good nights rest

back to old me again

welcome back bex

surprise bday pics

 


here

...

i wish i could pull your eyes out and make you see

see all the pain
and all the tears

the way she fears

for you, for who you were, who you are and who you will become

you have to wake up and see that the world owes you nothing

WE OWE YOU NOTHING

and you have made yourself what you have become

you have to learn discipline, responsibility

you HAVE to stop hurting the people who love you

you HAVE to stop

you're killing her off

and each day it brings me to tears to see

all her energy

its draining away...

to see her fighting back the tears, her beautiful smile, her laughter ... now replaced by frowns and so much unhappiness and so much stress

she doesnt need this she doesnt deserve this

you're so stupid

i want to slice open your head and re-program everything thats all fused together in there

i just want you to be normal
i want you to grow up

PLEASE GIVE ME BACK MY MUM!

it was a good day

yesterday was a good day

not only was it my birthday but it was also melbourne cup day so it was one big celebration at work.

i awoke to so many nice messages on my phone...

i got many well wishes, hugs, i got presents and a cake from my work collegues and it was so nice. vesna danced happy birthday to me all the way from her department on the other end of the office and nat and meeka left food at my desk. needless to say i was grinning all day.

we had melbourne cup sweeps at work and trust me to draw the losing horse, infact, my horse was so slow it couldnt even keep up with the camera on the television screen... ofcourse we all stopped work at 3 to watch the race...although i didnt win anything, it was good to be able to be a part of that.

at lunch they got chicken and some fingerfood and champagne... but i didnt stick around for it because danny came up to have lunch with me and he brought with me my present... a beautiful chanel purse.. could a girl ask for any more on her birthday?

then i came home and had laos food with my family and for the first time ever, my brother even washed up. it makes me want everyday to be my birthday ... but then again that would mean i would be aging faster...so maybe not.

so yes all in all... it was a good day =)